After 8 years, how’s Audrey?

“Behold, I will bring it health and cure, and I will cure them, and will reveal unto them the abundance of peace and truth.” Jeremiah 33:6. 🙏

This was me, 8 years ago.

How am I? I’m more than okay, by God’s grace. I just celebrated my 37th birthday last July 22, 2022.  It was a simple yet meaningful celebration because my brother, Arnold was home for my birthday. Good thing though, it was actually the wedding of his best friend which was the same day as my birthday. God’s grace that he was able to come home after 2.5 years of the pandemic. So it’s going to be my 8th anniversary, 8 years after my stroke happened. I never felt so okay, I am better now instead of bitter, and it’s all by the Lord’s grace. And my recovery journey was so memorable, for I was baptized and became an official follower of the Lord Jesus Christ last April 14, 2022. My health had been okay, I’m steroids free for 4 months and by the Lord’s grace it will keep on going forever. As for my stroke, still no movement in my right arm but the Lord has been sustaining me until it will finally move. And now I’ve been busy with the Ekklesia. Equipping me to be the Christian I am today. ☝️

It’s by the Lord’s grace why I continue to enjoy the life borrowed from the Lord.

“And I’d like to share the gospel with all of you. And then it has the 8 Gospel Essential Truths. Which includes God-Man-Sin-Death-Christ-Cross-Faith-Life. We first start with God. Don’t you know that we have GOD who is Sovereign, All-powerful creator, Almighty, Holy, and just Judge and we are accountable only to Him. And God must act at all times in absolute consistency with the perfection of His character, meaning God is the same yesterday, today, and in the future. As it was said in Hebrews 11:6, “But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for He that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him. Then we will talk about MAN. We all know that man is created in His own image, our qualities and abilities which God’s other creatures did not receive. Genesis 2:7 says, “And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and man became a living soul. And our Faith Response from the Bible we learn that we are made by God, loved by  God and that God deserves our full obedience. But SIN happened despite God created, loved and provided for Adam and Eve but they rebelled against Him. They disobeyed God, eating fruit from the one tree of which He told them not to eat. Disobeying God is called sin and sin is a great offense to God, who was perfect and holy. Romans 3:23 says, “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God. Our Faith Response From the Bible we learn that we have sinned against God and deserve His righteous punishment. Next is DEATH, don’t worry the essence of death is separation. We are actually born spiritually dead. There is Physical death, occurs when the human spirit separates from the body. Physical death is not the end of our human existence. After a person dies, he or she will appear before God, who is the holy and just Judge of all mankind. People who choose not to trust God’sprovision for sin and death will experience external death by being separated from God in everlasting conscious punishment. Death, in all of its forms, is God’s righteous judgment for sin. Hebrews 9:27 says, “And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment. Our Faith Response from the Bible we learn that we are facing God’s judgment and cannot escape it on our own. That’s why we need CHRIST. Soon after Adam and Eve sinned, God promised to send Someone who would conquer satan. Throughout the Old Testament, God gradually revealed who this person would be and that through His death forgiveness of sins would be provided for all who would trust Him. To fulfill His promise, God sent His Son, Jesus, to rescue us from judgment. God’s Son was born of a virgin named Mary and was known as Jesus of Nazareth. Jesus lived a completely perfect life of love and obedience to God. During His earthly ministry, Jesus clearly and repeatedly demonstrated, through His claims and miracles, that He is God. As both God and man in one perfect person, Jesus is truly unique and the only way to eternal life. In John 14:6, Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. Our Faith Response from the Bible we learn that Jesus Christ is the perfect Son of God and the perfect Son of Man, the only way to eternal life. He demonstrated His obedience to the Father through the Cross. Because God is perfectly holy He must punish those who disobey His commandments. Because God loves us even though we sin. He extends His mercy and grace to us in providing a just way in which we can be forgiven. In the Old Testament, God established a sacrificial system through which sinners could have their sins forgiven. Then God sent His Son Jesus to be the perfect and final sacrifice for sin. Because religious and political leaders hated Jesus, they manipulated people and twisted the law to condemn Him to die. Jesus willingly died in our place on a CROSS as our perfect sacrificial Lamb of God, the once-for-all payment for our sins. Three days later, Jesus rose to life again, showing that God accepted Jesus’ sacrifice as a just payment for our sins. 1 Peter 2:24 says, “Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness by whose stripes ye were healed. Our Faith Response from the Bible we learn that Jesus Christ, God’s Son, died for our sins and rose from the dead to rescue us from death and give us eternal life. As mentioned earlier, without FAITH it is impossible to please God. In contrast to other religions of the world, the gospel of Jesus Christ offers eternal salvation in a manner that does not require people to work for it or earn it. As sinful beings, no human being could earn salvation even if he or she wanted to and diligently tried to do so. Through the death of His Son Jesus, our loving and righteous God provided the way to pay our sin debt. Because Jesus paid the penalty for our sins, God extends salvation freely to us as a gift. God promises to forgive us if we repent and believe (trust) in His Son, Jesus Christ. Repentance occurs when our former false views of God, ourselves and our sins are deeply changed to conform to God’s view. To believe is to trust Jesus (place our faith in Jesus), and Jesus alone, to save us. In Ephesians 2:8-9, “For by grace are ye saved through faith, and that not of yourselves: Not of works, lest any man should boast. Our Faith Response from the Bible we learn that we must trust in Jesus’ death on the cross as the only satisfactory payment for our sins, as we abandon our trust in other things that we formerly relied upon to save us.  And lastly, LIFE. When we repent and trust in Jesus, we pass from spiritual death to spiritual life. The eternal spiritual life that God has promised becomes our present and everlasting possession, never to be fortified. Our new relationship with God free us from the fear of death, knowing that our names are recorded in the Lamb’s Book of Life and that ushers us into God’s presence. It is now possible to experience the love, joy and fulfillment that God desire for us. We will enjoy life eternally in the presence of God in a beautiful, sinless and pain-free paradise on a perfectly restored, new Earth. Then the only then, will we understand the full significance of the Bible’s story of hope. In John 11:25-26, “Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall never die. Our Faith Response from the Bible we learn that Jesus alone has power over death and that He gives eternal life to those who trust solely in Him for the forgiveness of sins. “(Source: The Story of Hope… Discovering the Provision in God’s Plan… Workbook -KJV/ http://www.GoodSoil.com, publish@abwe.org, pages 52-59)

Its been my life guide.

It was 8 years ago when I was rushed with my life hanging by thread, to the hospital, and our Lord is so merciful & gracious to my life that He made extended. And He started to work in my life. It was not easy for me, I even questioned Him so many times, I mean why me? And yet He didn’t leave me. He was with me from day 1. But my life started to change when I came to know of the gospel of Jesus Christ. But I already know who is Jesus Christ, that He is the Son of God. But when my knowledge of who He was, I was refreshed after hearing the gospel. My journey was never easy, there are a lot of times when I almost gave up because of the pain I was experiencing caused by my stroke. Then I realized that I’m a sinner like you guys. And that I don’t deserve this nth life. After reading the gospel. I have now a high view of the Lord and a right view of myself. I now understand that I didn’t take care of my health before and yet the Lord let me experience His grace. And promised me that things will get better, I just have to trust His provisions and have faith only in Him. Yes, it’s true and His promises are real & true because if His promises aren’t real & true then I wouldn’t be here telling you all about my life testimony.🙏😇

Being baptized to be an official Jesus Christ follower was more like a dream come true for me. I actually promised Him, that if I survive this, I promised Him that He can use me and that I dedicate the remaining years of my life to Him alone. That I will serve Him with all my heart, mind, soul, and strength. And that’s what I’ve been doing since. I know that the Lord still can’t use me to my full capacity. Since I am still half paralyzed or I still have weakness, I strongly believe that soon, He is able to use me 😭. That’s why during my water baptism He actually gave me my heart’s desire to travel again. I was even surprised when everything worked out for me to travel to Urdaneta, Pangasinan, my father’s hometown. I thought the Lord was not listening but He listened to what my heart really wanted. 🙏

And I don’t know, if it was just me, my heart desire of having to spend New Year  2021, I just prayed for a simple gathering. But to my amazement, my sister was able to order for us, our favorite foods for New Year’s eve. And many more instances, and breakthroughs the Lord has been true & faithful to me & my family. Last time I prayed for Him to grant my brother, Arnold to be home for my birthday. And out of the Lord’s grace, He made it possible for me. I’m so grateful for the Lord. I’m just waiting for Him to finally make my arm move again. I just patiently waiting for it. And I forgot to tell you, that when my friend Delia, re-introduced me to Jesus again. But this time, she introduced me by doing daily devotions. But with the help of the Lord’s wisdom, I’m able to understand. At first, I’m not sure how to go about it, but I did even research what devotions are. I started in the book of John. I really enjoy it, and up to now, I’m almost done with Leviticus. It was a great way to know who God and Jesus are. And I have a more intimate and personal relationship with them. It’s not about memorizing bible verses, but it’s a way for us to get to know God and Jesus better and they are both communicating with me through the Bible. 🙌

My daily devotions helped me to get through my recovery journey. It made me more grateful for the life borrowed from the Lord. My patience is longer now compared to before when I don’t have the patience. All in all the Lord sanctified me. I mean He totally changed me. Even I was surprised to tolerate things that I don’t usually tolerate. 🙌

I mean all in all I was a work in progress. It’s all by the Lord’s grace that I am able to update you again say after 8 years. So excited to the many answered prayers that the Lord is going to do in my life. Just hoping and praying, that you are able to learn a thing or two with my recovery journey. 🥰

All the global glory of our Lord.

My Answered Prayer

Isaiah 60:22, “When the time is I, the Lord will make it happen.” This verse has been true to me. I just got preoccupied and destructed by the different temptations of the world. Despite what had gone through with my life, the Lord remained faithful. And I just got reminded recently, during my recent hospitalization that my truest hearts desire, even when I was a young girl, I have feared the Lord which carried through until now. That my only goal is to please the Lord, our God alone. It might sound too good to be true, or a kind of showbiz, but it is. The way that I was brought up by my Papa & Mama has a lot to do with it, and I think they both did raise us well. To grow with a strong relationship foundation with God and the Lord.

On April 14, 2023, I will be exactly a year as a Christian, my public declaration of being baptized and becoming an official follower of the Lord Jesus Christ Baguio last April 14, 2022. I am a proud member of the Jesus Christ Ekklesia Baguio. So many things happened in 1 year. Aside from the Urdaneta trip, no it didn’t exempt me from the challenges of life. If you are thinking that being a follower of Jesus, that challenge will go away but the more challenge that we have to face. We did it all for Jesus because as long as we are in Christ, more we are prone to the attacks of the enemy. And here is the good news, we have the presence of the living God always that make us not fear anything. So here comes November 5, 2022. I was hospitalized for I was due for my routine check but I accidentally caught the Covid virus at the hospital. Blessed because I was complete all my Covid vaccinations. It was a life-threatening experience for me because as you all know that I have lupus so I’m counted as someone who can be comorbidity which made my situation more complicated. I experienced shortness of breath, and I was even diagnosed with heart failure because of the fluids found in my lungs and heart. No wonder most sick people didn’t survive. So here’s my own horror story with blood transfusion. We are afraid of needles especially me who has a low pain tolerance but with the help of the Lord, I just imagined that He is holding my hand while having the transfusion. And my transfusion started to commence November 17 or 18, around 2 am. It will require 2 hours to transfuse or the blood will be wasted. She, the nurse started with the transfusion, it was smooth at first then she started to panic because of the time. So she started pushing the IV which was painful for me because of burning/stinging/pain at the IV site promptly. And because of the consistent pushing my body to react, I started to react, my body experienced uncontrollable chills, my blood pressure started to shoot up so is my pulse rate, blessed I have my brother, Angelo who watched me during my hospitalization, he comforted me while I was crying, I even said my goodbye to him because I also feared for my life. I’m also scared to die but looking forward to my death someday but not yet for like in Philippians 1:21 “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.”, this verse has comforted me & I thank and praise the Lord for His sustaining grace for my life. He allowed me to survive this exp erience. But with the grace of our Lord I was able to survive death again. I know that He is watching over me from up there.

Now, going back to my answered prayer. Even as a little girl, I always feel that there is someone looking out for me, guiding me, protecting me. I grew up in a Catholic family, Catholic school which made me have a relationship with God and Jesus. I normally  would find talk to myself, because growing up as an only daughter, I felt alone and outcast from my two loving brothers. Little did I know that I was communicating everyday with Jesus. Most of my elementary years, I’ve been talking to the Lord. Especially, when I had my car accident when I was 8 years old. Whenever I was left alone I’m imagining that I’m talking with mother Mary and Jesus. It was so comforting to be able to talk with them. It made my recovery fast. Until things happen, I’ve been busy with school and as a young girl with boys just small crushes but I didn’t have boyfriends. Boy bands, in short I was putting attention with worldly things. That made me forgot about my relationship with the Lord. Until I graduated from college, started working, been busy with my own personal ambitions. Leaving the Lord on the side, though I still go to church once in a while. And to cut the long story short, when I started working in a call center, the more I forgot about the Lord. I even remembered telling Him, that my priorities need to come first and spare time with Him. Now that I’m having this constant communication with Him, that I have missed talking with Him. It just takes me having to get sick to remember Him again.

Until I got sick with Lupus last 2014. I even have the guts to even question Him, why me. Especially when I had my stroke the same year I was diagnosed. I was even depressed for almost a year. I could not accept what happened to me. Then I learned to seek Him again. With the help of my friend Delia, her persistence to reconnect me with the Lord. I was able to reconnect with the Lord. I’ve learned to read the bible again, devotions are part of my daily activity, then I started to have an constant, consistent intentional prayer again. Until my lupus started to flare again just this year, February. I thought that I’m going to die. I said my goodbyes again to my mom and brother. I felt pain like no other (or I might be over reacting). So my doctors suggested this lupus pulse therapy to us. It’s a combination of a high dose of steroids plus chemo.  The only fear I had with needles was because of my past experience when I had my blood transfusion last November. But the Lord has never left my side, giving me strength to face my challenges. Now, my pulse therapy will last until September, Lord willing, until my brother’s wedding.

So my answered prayer has been answered all along. All along I thought that having a family of my own or having a career or having my own business or traveling the world or even a millionaire or having a masters degree would satisfy me. But in realizing my truest desire will. Now I can say that I will give my total obedience and submission to the Lord. I now understand that the sum of all I’ve been through was something I can use to be an inspiration to many. Equipping me, to be ready to show that there’s still hope for us. (I borrowed some of the lines from the short Christian movie ‘Frank vs God’)

“I asked for strength
and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom
and God gave me problems to learn to solve.
I asked for prosperity
and God gave me a brain and brawn to work.
I asked for courage
and God gave me dangers to overcome.
I asked for love
and God gave me people to help.
I asked for favours
and God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted.
I received everything I needed.” By Hazrat Inayat Khan. Everything that happened to me, has a reason & a purpose. So He answered my prayer to be an inspiration. That’s why I made this school project when I was in 1 st year college.

So I will continue to please the Lord. And always practice the attitude of gratitude. And have this thinking to high view of the Lord and the right view of ourselves.

The Lord has always been faithful to my prayer. I almost didn’t remember it but He reminded me. So grateful to the Lord, for giving me a new purpose in life. I will continue to honor, glorify Him until my last breath. To Him I offer everything! To the Lord be the glory! Acknowledge Him always in everything we do. My daily prayer is Lord, you will be done.

And since I reconnected with the Lord. I told Him to try this old way of communicating with Him. It’s still one way but instead of me giving my prayer requests, now I start to listen to Him by consistent meditation on His word, religiously reading my Bible, constantly having an intentional prayer with Him. You will be surprised with what He can do, I experienced peace, I’m glowing, the experience of true joy and love. If you are going to ask me, I’m truly content with His love. I have had no boyfriend since birth but that is ok with me. The love of the Lord is enough for me. In Romans 8:28, says that “We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love him, whom he has called, according to his plan. So Lord I owe you everything that I am. ” To always seek His will for our lives not our will but yours alone.

I am Audrey Mae ‘Dimples’ Martin, a sinner and a former Self – pitier, but saved by His grace & now is living purposely for the Lord Jesus.

My Adventures with the Lord Jesus… a summer that I will never forget

“I waited patiently for the Lord’s help; then he listened to me and heard my cry.” Psalm 40:1

It was a summer I will never forget. Like what the Psalm said, at the right time, the Lord will make it happen. I’ve got to be patient. I’ve waited for my water baptism ever since I’m attending Sunday Services of the Christian church, the Jesus’ Young Followers ministry which was established as Gracetoration Christian Fellowship in 2003 in Coron, Palawan (https://www.facebook.com/groups/1513068765526094), came April 14, 2022. My heart’s desire for a water baptism was granted. The day that I’ve been waiting for is finally here. Water Baptism is your first act of obedience after putting your trust in Him. When you are baptized with water, you are obeying the words and commands of Jesus Christ. Water Baptism symbolizes that you are willing to follow Jesus, and have your life match His will for you (Google).

I came to know Jesus in my Lupus journey. As everybody knows, I had a stroke caused by my Lupus. Waking up from my deep sleep to half of my body paralyzed because of a brain stroke, where I had 7 blood clots that made me slow to recover. I was in depression because of what happened to me. My mom talked to a pastor to enlighten me with the Lord’s words and I became close to the Lord Jesus through my friend Delia, one day she introduced Jesus to me. But I already know who is Jesus. She meant to know Jesus in a more intimate way. So the more I became curious about Jesus, & what better way to know Jesus is by reading the bible. I asked my mom to buy me a bible and my friend, Delia taught me to have a daily devotion, that’s how I develop an intimate relationship with Jesus. Since then, I could not get over Jesus. And I knew Him dying for us on the cross of Calvary to think that we are still sinners . He endured persecution and endured lashes by the Roman guards. And then I was complaining because my stroke arm was painful. Comparing it to what Jesus experienced with the pain I had endured, it was nothing.  That’s why I started to endure the aftermath of my stroke. I never felt so alone with my lupus. I believe that no one can ever understand what I am going through. Yes, my family and friends are right beside me, but I was so alone. Then I thought of Jesus. How did he manage to be left alone by the apostles after that incident at Gethsemane? His love for us made Him endure all pains, He was motivated by His great love for us. So it made me think again, I’m not actually alone, His presence comforted me.  My relationship with Jesus started to blossom because of sharing with Him my unforgettable experience with Lupus, especially my stroke. Whenever I feel discouraged, I just think of Him. Like the discouragement of walking again and the experience with my tracheostomy. His grace made me survive it all even the most challenging ones.

After 2 years of waiting, I’ve finally decided to get baptized with Jesus’ Young Followers. My water baptism was held in our front yard, they actually set up a kid’s pool for my water baptism. It was led by Pastor Jefferson James Laxamana and Pastor Marc Anthony Navarro. And my fellow churchmates as witnesses. It was an exciting feeling that day. Now I’m officially a Christian, a Christ-follower!

Right that moment I felt that the Holy Spirit is literally working in me.  My prayers were answered not just because the Lord surprised me with my other heart’s desire to go & visit my father’s province, answered as well. Months before, my sister was planning for us to have a vacation in our father’s province, Urdaneta. At first, I was half excited because of my situation. I mean with my paralyzed half body, I doubt I’m going. But the Lord surprised me by answering my heart’s desire. Because that day of my water baptism, my aunt called & was asking if we have a ride going to Urdaneta. Yes, the Lord’s answers your prayers in the right time, I didn’t even insisted to the Lord about going to Urdaneta, I was just surprised. My brother Gelo, even said yes to my friend/ pastor who heard my mother was having a transportation problem, he offered to take us instead.

I was so amazed by the workings of the Lord. Indeed everything works for good of the who loves Him. As I was preparing for our trip, I just prayed to the Lord that whatever happens His WILL be done. Of we went for our 5 days vacation. I was so overwhelmed. That I could not contain my emotions. I cried for a few minutes while we were enroute to Pangasinan. As I was asking for strength from the Lord and I trust Him to deliver us. I don’t know but I have this feeling that the Lord is asking me to have a need to share the gospel to my family in Pangasinan. And after 3 hours of traveling, we finally arrived at my aunt’s house. With excitement, it’s been 10 years since my last visit. 8 years ago I had my stroke and I never thought that I will ever be back again. My aunt and the rest of my family welcomed us. They welcomed us with a warm hugs and kisses. We had lunch with our Pastors and his family plus 2 more companions. We were all in thanksgiving for the goodness of the Lord. And a short fellowship. So here comes our 2nd day, we had a very restful night and ready for our day, thanking the Lord for sustaining us. On our 3rd day, my sister together with her kids went to San Roque Dam. They had fun while I & Mama was treated by my aunt for a hair color with manicure / pedicure, thank you Lord for letting us especially me experience a salon treatment. You see I haven’t experience salon since my stroke. On the 3rd, thank you Lord for the opportunity to share the gospel with my Aunt, just praying to our Lord that the Holy Spirit will work in her. 4th day of our vacation, the privilege for me to see the beach again after 10 years. I just couldn’t believe that I’m going to set foot on the beach again. We went there around dawn since I’m avoiding the sun. We made fun of my situation, I’m like a vampire that staying long under the sun will trigger my lupus. But by God’s grace, I was fine. And on the 5th day, our last day. Thanking the Lord for the privilege to visit the grave of my Papa, grandpa, grandma and my late uncle Ruding. Our 5 days vacation was like a dream come true, thank you Lord for the unexpected blessings. Thank you Lord for your provisions. And we returned back to Baguio safely. I realized that when you put your total trust in the Lord, He did anwers prayers with the right condition of our heart. 🙏🙌

No goodbyes rather see you again…

I remembered Ate Jo, when I had my very first HR interview, she was intimidating but I soon found out why. Then when I got the HR Assist I gotten to know her better, she was so welcoming, warm, nice pala. I’m going to miss her so much. And her generosity in sharing her wisdom and knowledge regarding HR Compensation & Benefits stuff. I will never forget our going in the office during our off just to file 201’s … Hehehe… Ate, God bless and wish you and Usoy a happy life in UK. Keep safe always! And p.s. I’ll be continuously sending you morning greeting, that if it’s ok with you? 😘

Share the Love… A Lupus Christmas Together (2018)

We had our Christmas Get Together again last year. As We all know that we always look forward to this event every year. We had food and drinks we enjoyed to share, aside from our Lupus. We enjoyed the company some were new faces and some were old ones. We had it last December 9 at Azalea Residence, Kuya J’s Baguio. It’s like the theme of GDiaries if I may qoute: “Share the Love” because the Lupus community in Baguio is just small but united. And we love each other like family.

Yet another memorable event, special mention to Joy Orallo… Thank you Joy for this wonderful gathering! Our hearts were full! 😘

 

I’m a Survivor!

I didn’t imagine my life without challenges. But life is what it is.

I was born dry labor. See my mom didn’t know that she’s having me , she has no idea since I was their first born. She waited 24 hours before giving birth. I almost never saw the light since I have experienced a lack of oxygen. And finally a bouncing healthy baby girl, yes that’s me. I was still a baby you can sense the determination/ will to live.

Then fast forward to my three years old self. I was hospitalized because of asthma. My Papa forgot to change my sweaty clothes. We both went down to our province. And so the result of our short trip was me getting asthma. it was not a near life & death situation but still the thought of me hospitalize.

Then fast forward when I was 8 years old. I had my first car accident. I got hit by a Tamaraw fx, Digitel’s service. I was king of dizzy that morning, I think I was having some sort of double vision. When I went to our Store. My brother Angelo and our helper was manning our then store and suddenly our lady helper told us that she needs to go to our mini mart along the highway since she needs to buy a cuticle remover. And the innocent me went with her not knowing that danger is waiting to strike. We rode a jeep since it was not that far from our house. While riding, I felt dizzy again. That’s why when the jeep stopped I almost stood up, then when it pass through the mini mart. I remembered going down the jeep but no one held my hand. I automatically crossed the street and suddenly I got hit but luckily I was not thrown by this car. To my surprise people who witnessed it was shouting. As I recalled, I when I opened my eyes I saw the front wheel of a jeep almost running over my head. But I was lucky, I was saved by my guardian angel. When suddenly I was rushed to the nearest hospital I saw our lady helper holding that cuticle remover and she was crying. The hospital staff contacted my mom. She was surprised since she carefully instructed us not outside. She found my bloody right leg and she was crying continuously. She did not even entered the room. That was my bloody experience. It was a laughing memory of me😂.

My unforgettable and most hurtful challenge, it was the moment I lost my father. I was sixteen then, see my father or my Papa was the best dad seeone can ever have. Losing him was the most difficult thing I can ever endure. He worked hard for us to the point of neglecting his own health. He was so kind, generous, the kind of father who is always there for his children. He maybe a simple Giant but his heart is so soft. I thought I’ll never gotten over his death. He was a selfless father.

And my very last challenge happened recently. when I was 29 years old. It happened to me without warning least expected. This challenge never prepared me or my family. I never can believe that I’m going to survive it but I’m blessed with remarkable faith & loving family, understanding friends. You know my Lupus journey from My Life & Death Experience … Tell All. You should know by now that I have learned to live my life to the fullest and that I’ve lived my life differently. Without regrets. Some would say that I have the life of a cat. 🐈 Now I can say that my past experiences has preparing me, that my challenges has preparing me for this current challenge.

But life is what it is. We just have to face it and be ready. We got to chase it because if not we’ll left behind.

I couldn’t thank you enough

 

Thank you is not enough for what you did before. Thank you for all the prayers & support! Thank you for owing my life to you. My apologies for the overdue THANK YOU’S but I sincerely Thank each of one who supported my Fundraisers, to my friends, colleagues here is Baguio and Manila, my elementary & high-school batch-mates  and even strangers who helped me before, may God bless all of you! Here are some of my captured testimonies last 2014.  Thank you again!

Food is Life

Well, isn’t obvious, I love food! Ever since I got sick & every time my steroids is increased so is my appetite. And I can’t do anything but to follow my stomach. hehehe🤣… But I attempted to control it many time I failed. I always look forward every morning, it seems that my purpose for living is just food.

You know it’s hard your sick & can’t even eat. I wished that I’m sick with food but than God I’m not. And continue to bless me with a very patient mother who always prepare my food. Thank you you tube for the recipes! 😉

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m not one of the Boys

 

 

I’ve surrounded by boys since I was a kid. So I can definitely say that I’m one of the boys. From my cousins who are majority are boys or male. I remembered that I’m super close with my father plus I have 2 brothers. When I was a kid me & my mom will have this petty fight over wearing a dress or pants, coz I always choose pants. What can I do I’m more comfortable with pants .. hehehe. I guess I’m just more comfortable with boys. When I was a kid my father is so amused by my being a boyish little girl, see my father thought I was a boy but when my mom gave birth to a bouncy little girl, to my father’s surprise….

I even remember way back in college. I really consider myself as one of the boys, see coming from  an all girl’s high-school, made me awkward towards the opposite sex then in college I suddenly adjusted from an exclusive school for girls to a co-ed University. When boys start to talk to me I blush even the third sex. But my 3rd year in college, I changed, I became more open to  the opposite sex. I had “boy friends”. I didn’t expect it it sort of happened. And they are my friends up until now. Tried and tested my friends for Life. I admire the way they treat females, without malice, I’m so blessed that all of my friends have high respect for the ladies. They were at my side when I was 50/50 at the hospital. I’m so grateful to each and everyone of my friends. Most of them are already happily married. I’m so proud of you, you will make every future daughter of yours proud! 😍

 

 

 

 

Why I always look forward my birthday

Ever since I had my 3rd life, I’ve learned to treasure my birthday for 4 years now. I always look forward every birthday but it came to a point where I refuse to live any longer, because of lost hope. I don’t see the point of living or my purpose because of my suffering back then.  But now that I’m passed the acceptance stage, I can’t be more grateful with my life, see I understood my purpose for living for my family of course. I’m just so blessed with super understanding family even when I’m pain in their behinds 😓.

My birthday is on July 22, I’m now 33 years old. Blessed to be 33. Some might say a year older (sigh ) but for me it’s another year to be a blessing to others and a another chance to improve. So I’m thanking my family-their my constant in my journey, friends and former office-mates for celebrating this with me. For celebrating not only my birthday but in celebration of LIFE 🤣 🙏. Because if you are going to think of it, I’ll be celebrating my 4th birthday since my stroke. What stroke can did in my life, I almost lost myself & thought of taking my own life along the process. But thanks to my faith it saved me 🙏.

My memorable birthdays this past 4 years. Thank you to all who took part of this special occasion of my life.