Shall I continue my Masters or not?

My grad school days, I thought it’s over see 3 1/5 years ago I suffered a stroke caused by Lupus. I thought that I will no longer continue my Masters at the University of the Philippines Baguio. That is because I don’t see my purpose to continue but then last June 21, 2018, they had their graduation. Now it made me rethink of the years I’ve invested in this University. I was so excited to go to school every Saturday, and the confidence it made me feel before, the belief on my mind that I’m going to finish what I’ve started. It all came back to me now.

Then the urge of finishing it again suddenly kick in. I just have I more semester to finish and my to finishing my final strategis paper: “A Strategy Paper for InterContinental Hotels Group Philippine Corporate Reservations Office on Hiring the Visually Impaired”, before when I was still with IHG. But now I’ll be solo & it’s funny to think that I’m now part of the pwd’s/ Persons with Disabilities I used to study them. The irony of life. My stroke left me paralyzed my whole right side. But now I can already walk with a cane & just waiting for my right arm to move. But thank God He returned my full function of my brain 🙏.  My classmates before I might not see them as before but I appreciate their support to me. Until I see you around. I still need to recover. Then maybe in the future I’ll be able to finally finish it and finally wear a Sablay.. My illness doesn’t define me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My everyday to do…

 

My stroke recovery gave me a chance to do something that I don’t have the time before to do. Like watching my favorite TV-series, movies and blogging. I’m just so thankful for my mental function recovery.

 

My daily activities firstly, watching my TV-series or movies. Thanking my brother, Gelo for downloading. Can believe it I can now watch and finish Gray’s Anatomy Seasons 1-13 and the latest movies like the Shack, Miracles from Heaven, etc. And if I have movies that I want to watch, I just request it to Gelo. (don’t you worry all downloads are for personal use only 😉). Then my blogging is next. When I was a little girl I’m really into writing, I remembered in College I wrote poems. I really love writing.It helps in my recovery. I really love to blog especially, during my Masters at the University of the Philippines Baguio but I don’t have the time. Aw, I miss writing my final paper. But it is something I want to do. Thank you Lord for giving the chance. At least, I’m putting into good use my writing talent 😊.  So my realization, there’s something positive outcome of my stroke.

Writing is my outlet because I have a lot of thoughts 😉.

My Story

Why is it always girls who plays the role of a sick girl like the the movie: A Walk to Remember, or Everything, Everything or Midnight Sun, I always imagine myself as the sick girl with broken wings? And now it has finally happened to me but the thing is that now I have an incurable sickness however my love life is not happening (hehehe) 😂. So now if you are going to ask me why, the answer is I don’t know why . I’ve been in love a couple of times, if you’re going to ask me. I had my share of romantic excitement before I got sick 😂. But now I can honestly say that I’m regretting my love life because there where I mean most of my suppose to be blossoming love life I did not pursue it. Maybe because I felt that tragedy will hit  me.  I had different priorities before like I have to study really hard then I had responsibilities but I have no regrets because I needed to be a responsible daughter first & foremost.  So, my story it’s never too late for me. I’m still waiting for my love story to happen in God’s perfect timing 🙏.

A day in a life of a Stroke Survivor & Lupus Warrior

I go to sleep with pain with my right arm which bothers me the whole day. That is my stroke bothering me. As for my lupus, it bothers me when it is active & on lucky days I don’t feel pain which happens by the way rarely. & if I’m not that luck, my whole body aches.

But all in all, I manage and just stay positive. That someday it will all end. My everyday is basically routinary because I couldn’t do anything. I’m just thankful that I’m breathing and that my brain is still working. I guess that’s a bonus.These too shall pass I keep on repeating to myself. My friends , my family don’t know a deeper pain in me but it’s okay. My reality is now like these, I have to accept…😉

But I try my best to be positive everyday. I post positive greeting except on days where wake up late. I keep on doing these until the day my body’s decide to be normal again (hehehe) ☝🙏. You might be wondering what is my typical day. I get up and surviving my day is waking up hopefully pain free. My day will be ruined by pain. Maybe you’re envying my life because I don’t have to worry any responsibilities, all I need to do is to completely focus on my recovery. But you shouldn’t envy me. My life hasn’t been all smiles but I’m so blessed with a very caring and lovable family. My routine wold include going to the bathroom and clean myself, then I have breakfast, then take my daily meds, then walk my daily exercise. It just my schedule is not that full unlike before that my schedule is always hectic and stressful. And don’t I have to go to work or even wake up early for work. I don’t miss it except for months after I’ve woken up from my coma. But now I’m just focusing on my recovery 🙏.